A Mother's Love

Tonight I woke up after having slept for some 18 hours. I was painful, hungry and extremely disoriented. Despite all of that I quickly forgot my physical discomforts and became upset. I said to myself, "why did'nt mommy wake me??"

So I got out of bed, albeit a little bent over, to ask her myself. The house was dark and quiet but I went straight to her bed room, called her name and barged in. The bed was empty and the room remained dark. I closed the door and then proceeded to call my SiL's name and knocked on her room door. She opened it and I said where is everybody? She informed me her husband was at work and my mother was at church. (or so we assumed, since it is Sunday) I check my other brothers room and find out that he also was not home. Note this was around 7pm!

I rubbed my back to ease the pain, took some pain meds, drank some calories and lay back down and watched reruns of smallville.

I looked up at the clock and i was like oh boy time to post my pic. (365 days of shamise) I did that and my brother came home complaining of a cough. At this point it still did not register that it was after ten and my mother was not home as yet.

It was not until 11:04pm my sister in law said, " Is your mother sleeping?" I said "No, she is not in her room. I assumed she was at church. She did not pass my room door." Alarms went off! It was after 11 and my mother was not home from church!!!!

I quickly got on the phone. I called the church. The caretaker answered, he sounded full of sleep and said church was over a long time ago. I still assumed there was an evening service. I then called assistant pastor, she informed me that she was not sure of any other services tonight but we did not have one tonight. My beta blocked heart started pounding! I said she was going to a lenten tea and fashion show this afternoon but that should be long over! She said yes it is. So Rev'd R said she will make calls.

I then frantically searched my room for my mothers phone book. I kept telling my SiL about the little torn phone book. We looked in her bible all over her bed and we found nothing. I sat back down in my bed on the brink of tears and called my mothers phone for the 5th time!!!! Still no answer. I was like I dont have the numbers of any of her friends. What would I do?

I then got a call from Rev'd R, who told me that there was a play by one of our sister churches. I said thanks Ill call people who go there. Only person I knew who goes to that church is my Aunt. Guess what? I did not have her number! I then searched my mothers room again, this time I was trying to think. I found a phone book and spoke to my Aunt who said she saw my mom at church, but she left 1/2 an hour ago before the play ended.

The next thing I did was go down the list and started calling people who mommy might have went with! I got an answering machine. I called Rev'd R back, and while on the phone I hear my sis in law rowing. Then I heard my mothers voice. I told Rev'd R she was home and I was gonna fuss her out now.

The long and short of it is that Mommy told my SiL or maybe she thought she did several days ago what she was gonna do today. I was never told anything. I then gave her the speech! "How dare you leave this house and no one in the house knows where you are going? We dont have telephone numbers of any of your friends. You are not allowed to leave this house unless at least two people know where you are going at the time!!!!"

Ok lets go back two paces! Yes I am the daughter, and yes I was talking to my mother! In that moment, my chest ached as I imagined a world with out my mother. I suddenly started itching all over and had this intense heat consume me. I started sweating and even shaking a bit just imagining all the horrors that could have befalled my mother in this day and age. I then said Thank You GOD.

So really even though I titled this blog, ' A Mother's Love', it really is about a daughters love. However, if it were not for the love my mother has given me through the years, I doubt there would have been much love coming from this daughter. I am happy mommy is in her bed all safe and sound.

There is no other love in this world like a mother's love. That may be true, but I think a daughters love comes very close!